Paul Is The Man...Hello Romans!

you know how i described my blog title in my first post? about black heels being a girl's happy place? its so interesting to see how much i have changed AND stayed the same since the very beginning birth of my baby blog. like yeah i still think shoes are one heck of a happy place, oh definitely. i get the DSW email pretty much every day and open it up and just glance at the heels and pumps. soooo beautiful! but i never buy anything, just look. and hope to have a job that requires awesome heels someday. as of now, im content with my black flats that have a lil diamond bow. however, i probably should buy some of those Dr. Schollz insert things to support myself. standing straight for five hours doesn't feel great. you would think i would buy those insert things because they are right in front of my face in the Foot Care Section...haha. wow.

yeah so my happy place has changed. it always does. that is life ya know? you have to keep changing things up to see what gets you, to see what really gets you excited and happy. honestly, i cant even decide right now! if any of you are dedicated readers of my silly blog and know me well, you know that im super impulsive and obsessive. once i like something, i then LOVE it and get it or need it all the time. for example.....oh my.....embarrassing. i have to get double chocolate milano cookies every time i go grocery shopping! i tried them one day and then freaked and now have to get them every single time. ANOTHER EXAMPLE.....haha....frickin french toast bagels! did you know that those existed??? i didnt! not until two weeks ago. i knew there were blueberry, cinnamon/raisin (ick!), plain, and onion but never did i know of the wonderful creation of the fench toast bagel. wow...that morning forever changed me. as you can see, finding new delicious food rocks my world. but okay, seriously now...my new happy place. WAIT...i also get scooby macaroni everytime i grocery shop too! okay back to serious...wow this is going to sound corny and cliche but reading the Bible....is my happy place.

sooo im really into reading these days because i seem to have a lil extra time outside of 15 credits of school and 25 hours of work each week. over christmas break i dug into captivating really wanting to understand what being a woman in God's eyes looked like. i religiously read that book like it was the answer to my life's problems. every single day i brought that to work and brought my journal and went to town! but for some reason it didn't fill anything, i was not feeling satisfied or fulfilled at all. dont get me wrong, that book rocks and it has opened my eyes to see women as the "crown of creation" and its a very uplifting book! on the side, i was reading one chapter of my Bible....a week. i honestly thought that was enough. so i thought to myself, whatevs, im just not feeling completely satisfied right now because that is how it has been for sometime (thats just one issue im working on with God right now....really really being satisfied in Him, and finding Him to be more than enough...its tough!) so i shluffed it off and got packed up and headed back to winona, planning on pursuing the same routine.

mental breakdown! the first week just did not go the way i was hoping at all and i was feeling drained and pissed at myself for choosing to come back this semester. however, i kept my mind focused and tried to go after God each time i felt doubtful and frustrated. and do you know what i read to try and re-focus in the middle of my freak-outs??? frickin captivating! are you kidding?? and i found myself in the biggest rut ever and didn't understand why i felt so distant from God. i actually got to the point where i still had five days left to drop any/all classes without any charge soo i talked to the folks and got ready to break the news that i wanted to come home. coming back was a mistake (do you now see how impulsive i can be....calm down amy) then thankfully God shook some sense into me and blessed me with a great weekend full of laughs, love and complete awesomeness (i adore you haylee, hannah, and jen!!). I know He was present and wanted me here...at least one last semester. so then i got a nice lil bright idea, OPEN THE BIBLE! like i said in my last blog, i finished up Hebrews and was just stunned by the peace i recieved from literally reading His word. what have i been doing??? why haven't i been reading this juicy book every day?? its sooo good!!! I started Romans hence the title of my blog. suuuuper good so far. Paul is like the man. wow! I really like getting to know this dude and what he is all about. He is soo compassionate! the way he describes his longing to visit rome is just awesome.

i do wish i was more informed of how to read the Bible, if that makes sense. i guess ill talk about that later, its a whole enitre other topic i could gab about forever. but it was interesting how in the first Chapter it went from Paul's lovey doveyness towards Rome and then all of a sudden a whole chunk on God's wrath! intense! seriously, take a read. and you will feel it. i love how there are dark parts to the Bible that expose the truth.

one sweet thing that Paul said that stuck out to me was this...Romans 1:20 "For since the creation of the world God's invisible qualities—his eternal power and divine nature—have been clearly seen, being understood from what has been made, so that men are without excuse. " just bask in the awesomeness of this verse. i LOVE how Paul said "God's invisible qualities". it just shows his true devotion and that faith is not about seeing but believing. i really had to read that verse over and over again and just smile. Its like almost sarcastic to me...as if Paul is saying "do you reallllly not see God all around you?? you MAY NOT have an excuse, complaining that you don't 'see' God...no...there is no excuse. God's power and love and beauty surround you on a daily basis...He has been constantly showing his invisible qualities since creation!!" Paul rocks.

do you see His invisible qualities? its something to ponder! =)

and im not sitting here saying that you should go read the Bible daily (but it wouldnt hurt...) just because i do. it has taken me around two years in my walk with God to get the desire to read His word. it comes in time! do what you do. baby steps.

well i actually have the day off tomorrow sooo you won't be hearing from me but hopefully soon! man i love blogging! id like to make a shout out to hillary anne bates, she has begun blogging again! welcome back, welcome back.

song of the day-"song of hope" by the robbie seay band....this is my anthem!

Peace