A Reason For The Season

I forgot about my blog! how awful. no that is a lie...i did not forget about it. i just have not cared to write for the past week or so, thats not a fun feeling at all! usually im super weird and think about my blog on a every other day basis and i try to organize my thoughts and like practically write a post in my head and try to save it. woooow, that does not work. there was a bunch of stuff i wanted to talk about around a week ago but i got distracted by this thing we call LIFE, and now im kind of drawing a blank. whatevs, take my boringness in!

ha okay so i have been at school for a week already. SICK! most of you people haven't even started. i feel like all my friends are still on break sleeping in until 2pm and doing nothing. that feels like years ago! its so funny how when you go back to school, after two or three days you already feel like it has been weeeeeks. then you look at your planner and feel dumb. to be honest, i have barely used my planner so far this semester. you guys, that is not good. that means i have all my assignments floating around in my noggin. and when i abandon my planner, i find myself getting to class and then sitting down and looking around at everyone pulling out an assignment that I DID NOT DO because i did not write it down! that has already happened this semester so far. embarrassing. and i don't know what is up with this semester so far, but all my classes seem to be filled with huge burly (sp??) football players that make the room feel soo confined and weird. they all do not speak in class and hide in the back and facebook chat or something (ha i fb chat too.....suuuuper lame). see im used to most of my classes being women women and oh wait some more frickin women! winona has a ratio of 7 girls to 1 guy. yeah that actually happens i guess. thats okay with me. but my classes are just very packed and loud and weird this semester. i have chemistry appreciation (dont ask...all you need to know is that it is as lame as it sounds), physics-energy, approaches to film, conflict and communication, aaannddd intercultural communication. im content. smashin. sweet.

anyways, sorry to babble about school. just getting adjusted. WHICH I HATE. there are goods and bads of being back:

GOOD:

-walking becomes my way of getting anywhere, my car just sits here

-pleasant valley church on sundays

-friends living right next door, above me, and below me

-monday night bowling (when i can go)

-breathe on fridays

-small groups

-i finally have people to watch movies with instead of watching house or greys anatomy by myself every night before bed at home

-meals consist of ridiculous stories and hardcore laughing instead of making a dinky little sandwich at home BY MYSELF 

-dance parties and doing the cupid shuffle

-having a whole gym like 5 minutes away to get in rockin shape

-running into someone i know every time i walk to class

-deep talks with people at the most random times about the most random things

BAD:

-smelling like dirty feet after leaving the cafeteria (seriously i changed clothes after eating in the caf...its soooo gross)

-doing my own laundry....very difficult

-staying organized

-constantly checking facebook over 500 times a day to avoid doing homework

-bundling up for negative twenty degree weather then stripping down for class, then bundling up to go back to my room then stripping down. OBNOXIOUS!

-showering with crocks on so i dont get foot disease

yeah so enough about school. who really wants to talk about it. no one. so here is a scoop of my heart right now. and it relates to my title too. so i feel like people need to try and relate their lives to the four seasons of the year. so this is my current situation-i am in school but don't really want to be at this school. i am here but dont feel like i belong here. sooo of course, all i think about is what i am going to do next. what adventure i am going to find or friends ill make or where the heck ill be a year from now. why cant i be content with my current situation and see what comes from just being okay with what is dealt to me right now? we are always ready to keep walking and keep stepping forward which is sweet because we want to run after goals and run after God's heart and seek better things BUT have we ever stopped to look around at what we are walking by? like seriously compare your life to a walk in the park....do you think its best to keep walking really fast with motivation and just look straight and focus 100%...? do you think that keeping that intense pace is the best idea? why not slow down and take a deep breath? do you think that keeping your ipod on at full volume is always needed? its like we put this bubble around us to just avoid ANYTHING that could change our pace, our walk, our plan....our mission. does that walk sound appealing? 

i picture this intense lady with her spandex shorts on and a running top. no smile. an ipod on. and this really fast walk that shows shes thinking "i just want to get this done because i have things i want to do later...i just need to get through this" i see her focused cold eyes and shes breaking out in a sweat to get this walk where she needs to be.

did she ever think to look to her right where there was a little girl playing with her new puppy, and how she could have stopped to ask her where she got it from and what the name is? they could have laughed and played together. did she look to her left and see the old couple looking at the river together, holding hands and talking about how beautiful the scenery is. maybe if she would have stopped, they could have enjoyed God's creation together, and she could hear about their love story if she asked. maybe if she would have looked behind her, she could smile and see how far she has come and take a minute to think and pray and reflect and feel some emotion about the path she has traveled. if she would have just STOPPED and looked around-she could have seen the flowers in the park, friends playing frisbee...she could have felt the warm wind on her arms and cheeks...she could have seen and felt GOD. 

i guess what i am trying to say is enjoy where you are. stop walking so hard and so fast for a day and LOOK AROUND. don't look forward....but look completely around you and take it in. sit down and seriously take it in. be content with your current situation just as we have to be content with what season we are in right now. IT IS FRICKIN WINTER and sometimes it sucks but no matter how much we want it, spring won't come until march/april. so knock it off and enjoy today. sometimes God puts you through seasons, sometimes even a painful season. he might not rescue you out of it right away, and he might not give you want you want so desperately because he is after something more valuable than your happiness...he is restoring and growing in you an eternal weight of glory =) so just as you must enjoy the four different seasons of a year, enjoy the seasons of your life. looooook around!!!! and smile at your life. you rock.

ha im lame! trying to be all motivational or whatever.

song of the day "colors" by the rocket summer (someone i know is a hater and doesnt care for them, but they pretty much are very cool...so enjoy)

Peace