and 2-3 days left of being at school, then break!!
i am a little shocked realizing that this semester is over. its so weird because looking back at last year, i vividly remember so much growth and so many wonderful things happening first semester. God blessed me with an incredible friendship...the friendship of the lovely kendal leigh wigdal. my soul sister. i never got so close to someone in such a short amount of time. its like i was searching for her all my life and when we met, it just fit. haha it sounds like im talking about a guy. no no no, kendal is better than silly boys. they come and go, but she has been there.
not that anyone probably cares, but this is my little story of last year. take a trip down memory lane with me =) so yes i met kendal and we were inseparable. kendal went through some of the hardest things first semester, and we cried a whole lot together. many movie nights alone in her room just talking, and praying, and crying. we enjoyed having many "freakin festivals" after mass communication on wednesdays. haha, so much fun! we had all these plans, and hopes of where us two would go together. and that no matter what, we had each other to get through the lameness of school. things took a huge turn for the worst and kendal couldn't come back for second semester. she moved far far far away to milwaukee (stephanie helped me spell that hahahaha) in the middle of no where! i still remember coming back second semester and i opened my door to my single room and looked around and just felt sick and starting sobbing knowing that she was gone and i had to face everything on my own. blaaaa, so that was tough tough tough. haha i remember saying bye to her (she came back for a few days to get her stuff and move out of nona)...i got onto the shuttle bus to go back to west campus where i was living last year, and i looked out the window and waved as she stood there on the curb crying. like really....is there a camera somewhere???? are we in a movie??? i wish. i wish it was a movie so it all wasn't real and the tears were fake. BUT it was fo sho real. and one of the hardest things ever. kendal is living in la crosse now and life is good for her, and i thank God for that. she has gone through more than i can imagine. she is a frickin awesome teller at associated bank and rocks the heck out of it. =) we are 30min apart but it feels like states away. i dont get to see her beautiful face much but somehow i survive without her. I MISS YOU KENDAL!
2nd semester started and wow was that not fun. i tried majoring in marketing and my classes such as accounting, macroeconomics, and pre-calc were just not that fabulous. lol i had no idea what was going on at all in any of those classes. i sat there with squinty eyes and would just stare at my professor wanting so badly to understand what the heck they were talking about. so weeks went on and i got used to not knowing what in the world was happening in any of my classes. on the bright side God blessed me with a lovely new friendship with the darling sarah galbrecht!! she was my neighbor and just the darn cutest thing ever. happiest, most encouraging thing ever. ahh i miss you sarah g! she fell a lot. ha. and we both talked about how psycho we are. good times =) sarah continued her college career at the very large and scary University of Minnesota in the cities. im so proud of her....shes going to graduate early! but i miss her so much...coming to my door and saying with her sweet voice "shlamey...can i come in". aww i miss you bff neighbor!
two amazing girls....now gone. it sucks so much and i miss them more than words could express here on my blog. for how hard things have been lately, i think about them a lot...wishing they were here so i could lay my head on their shoulder and just cry. doesnt this all just really suck guys? people always leave. and that is how life will be from here on. every semester, every school year, every summer...people come in your life and then the next day they are gone. its like one minute you're laughing with someone you call your best friend and you dont want the time to stop because you're so happy...then all of a sudden they are out of your life and you can't remember the last time you heard their voice on the phone. im wondering if this is something we will all get used to? i honestly dont know how i can get used to it. why am i so sensitive??? geez, why cant i be a dude?? they seem to be just like whatever to most things. im so sick of losing people. why is it that the people we want to hold onto the most are the ones that walk away? weird how that works huh. BUT, im guessing this is life right? gotta get used to the never-ending changes of relationships and people disappearing. the ones who love me enough will never disappear...i know that. we all have those bff's (lol i really just said that, best friends forever....frick yeah) in our lives and they never leave. love you all my beefs!!! haha
so the title of my blog is "thanks Britney" because i was really thinking about the word strength and whether or not i have a lot of it. people say i am a lot stronger than i think so thats awesome. Britney Spears is someone we all know, dont lie people!!! ITS BRITNEY SPEARS!! im not a fan at all but her lyircs popped into my head "and now im stronger than yesterday" and as lame as i think all her music is and just who she portrays herself as...those lyrics brought truth to me. if you're going through the crappiest of all crapness, know that you're more than likely stronger than you were yesterday. losing friends and loved ones is tough, ive experienced it all. but im stronger than i was yesterday and that rocks. it helps me see that like a month from now, ill be uber strong! yeaaaaah....sweet =) so thanks for your lil diddy Britney. it helped.
song of the day "tired and uninspired" by My American Heart
quote from the song to relate to my strength topic...."be strong for me and ill be strong for you" love that!!! this song is one of my favs, enjoy!
peace
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