evolution + spanish + amy = dropping out of school

como estas? bien? those words pretty much sum up my knowledge about spanish...maybe some others...trabajar, hacer, frutas, ect. its a pretty easy language to learn from what i have heard. i need a foreign language for my major, which i guess makes sense because i am majoring in communication studies. why wouldnt i be well rounded in another language? i am frickin supposed to impress people with my comm skills, so why not bust out something other than english? since the day i decided to transfer to the u of m, i was dreading the start of my spanish classes and it has begun. DEATH! thank the Lord, he blessed me with fellow classmates who are just as confused as i am and after we are told to do a certain activity we look at each other and say "do you know what she said??"...the class has seriously become a highlight of my day because i am laughing through the whole thing...completely confused and wondering how i will manage to press through this 5 credit class (yeah 5 credits....seriously? classes should not be allowed this many credits... its like a full time job)

theeennnnnnn i get the joyous experience of experiencing anthropology-human evolution-this semester. how lucky am i??? i get to "learn" all about my ancestors-the apes, the good ol monkeys. boy am i proud of what i evolved from. or what i was selected from...right? uh yeah not sure. school is hard for me...ask anyone that knows me-ive said "im dropping out" around 4-5 times a week. drama queen? yeah i guess you can call me that. regardless, even though school is a challenge, i can listen and learn and really apply myself if i need to. never in my highschool/college education have i taken a class where i literally want to throw my textbook into the bottom of the ocean and plug my ears with cotton balls because hearing all the garbage in those lectures drives me crazy. i want to stand up and scream and yell "i wasn't randomly selected! i did NOT evolve from some snail that turned into a chimp that turned into me! i was preciously CREATED, i was CHOSEN, i was knit together in my mothers womb, i am here for a REASON, i am special, i am loved, i have a purpose, i have a caring FATHER who knew me before i was born...i was made by the one and only...the almighty creator of the entire universe!!"

doesn't that sound...better? ...real? doesn't that make you want to live?

man would i get stares, and in all honesty i would never do that. im not typically brave, only in rare circumstances. and i dont think that would even be appropriate. but this class got my brain really really thinking and my heart seeking....why dont i believe all this? natural selection? evolution and what not? it does make sense, it has an explanation for why we are here. it is simple and seems to make sense. it bothered me, it made me feel uncomfortable...if i was called out by that professor and she said "young lady, what do you believe"...i would say "i believe in God, the creator" but wouldnt be able to elaborate

i can say with confidence i believe in God, i believe in eternal life and i believe i was made for a purpose...but i feel ashamed to not have a clue why evolution is wrong. who would have ever guessed God placed me in an awful class for a reason. he desires for me to learn so much MORE about him...the stuff that really makes me want to gag (science) but i guess it is that time. my walk with the Lord has been strong for the past couple of years and ive been pushing off crucial parts of the bible, such as creation and the end times. if its complicated, it irritates me and i will just take the basics...."i was created by God in 7 days" or "i know i will go to heaven"...simple...but i know God wants me to KNOW more. so ill dig deep this semester...real deep! id love to take all my anthropology information and bring it to one of my pastors at church and discuss what the Bible has to say in defense to all this bogus mumbo jumbo!

am i right people????? why dont we always take things a step further? and really figure out why God has us where he has us. it is no mistake where you are every second of every day, its planned.

be at comfort, and find peace...your life is not random :)

oh and btw, i am taking on a pretty sweet challenge during this fine year of 2010...i am reading the one year Bible...talk about discipline...doing anything daily (other than texting and eating) is tough for me. so as most of you have probably noticed, you'll be getting plenty of verses from me from day to day because i cant help but share the goodness of the word :) okay well i must study for espanol!!!!! estoy muy nervioso! its a great feeling going into the exam knowing i took the class pass/fail......ahhhhhhh soooooo grrrreat!

song of the day-"say what you will" by nural

peace